New leaf new life

Back to the blogger again, dont know why, wanna on the blogger suddenly but not before,maybe wanna seeing back how i did feel on your love before, i found that i was so sincerely taking out my heart on hoping ur back and always did many everybody felt that stupid thingson my life, unhappy everyday, drank many cups of coffee without sugar everyday once i thought of you, thought of how to attract you again maybe hidden my sad but every laughing features when met you intentionally or unintentionally, crying every nite, thinking now, i went through alot experiences on love???? i also have no idea but i learned that should be thinking repeatedly and heavily on deciding one thing from right or wrong, should or shouldnt, and importantly its consequences, am i right? if i was not that standing on one concept that trust true love had in the world, might i wont be telling this "stupid" reason to decide broke up with you...that only can i blame on myself too stubborn. on this blogger today, i have decided to "close file" these love on my diary, on my life, i wouldnt think how to attract you, i wouldnt think of you much than before, i wouldnt think how have i an opportunity to get you back on my side oneday because i felt very tired of do these again and again but never have response, you might be think i dont have there's so call "holding", but i dun want stop there longer and longer again, i want to move on my life still, and importantly, i want to go on my life with happiness and happiness than everyone on everyday, i want to treat myself and my family to the BEST. But if there have oneday, i still would be turning back and hold back your hand, there is still yet my hope also.

Dont Understand

Today upload our pictures to my facebook...forgot to delete the file in computer that brother found it...mother asked me to delete it at once in avoiding brother would be angry...i felt very hurtbreak on that time...why i should do these and tolerate on everything for my brother??? there should be i angry when saw these pictures rather than my brother!!! i should be more sad than my brother when seeing this photos, but why i should be torelated to him on these my sad things whereas i should be hiddening my sadness and make my brother happy...why??? i felt so sad and hetred on my brother and even on my mother...why she listen to brother everytime..but not me...i would be ignored everytime...everyone care about his feeling, then how about my feeling???who is going to care of me???June Ping, even you would not care of my feeling why i would write the "letter" to you...dont you think i would be very happy to speak out these words in the letter to hurt you??!! i didnt want to do these on you but i didnt want to lies on you because i really love on you, why dont u understand me??? nevertheless, you even hurt me one times by one times after that...do you know, i felt so suffered when hidden the feeling that lost of you, the pressure of my family and my study...i dont know how to manage these feelings right...i just feeling so suffered than before now...my family wont understand me...even you also ignored me...and now i felt so stressed on studying...in the past, you would be my side and encouraged me but now...i really felt helpless and lonely...i felt very unhappy to go on my life...everybody dont understand me...

Cheating

How were ur exam??? really wanna sms to u at that moment...send the blessings to u but u never reply...y??? am i so "fan"???i just wanna take care of u...y dont u give me a chance??? am i so hatred??? Didnt sms to u for a long time...very miss u...dont know why...the time passing so fast...the numbers of missed you less than more before..not very sad than before...i know u had been forgot me in the early time...men really can change his position at once and treat these as nothing more...since the treatment happened on me, i found that i wount trust more on men anymore even my father and brother...all of u is cheating!!!

Nobody

Downloaded a nice song today...that is "nobody" from korean song...this song has a significant meaning...that is just love you only..it doesnt matter you leave me alone...i just love you but nobody...actually i wanna post the song on here..but dont know how...maybe will be post later..and then you can listen it..i have many korean song also very nice...like...very meaningful to me...today have to rush two assignments just can sleep...plan to sleep on the lecture hall tomorrow...as there got aircon and nice environment...pls take care and drink more water...treat you right way...

Bloody

Today rush for the assignments that erupted into bloody...do you know, actually i have been advised that dont wear the shoes again and again...but i just ignored and that made me faal down for many times even happened in Monash U also..maybe today too tired of writting the assignments...so less concern on the road when walking...then fell down accidentlly...my one of the toe nail broke....bloody at all..a bit painful...but i didnt shout and cry...just normal face it...so brave...however, felt tired now...wanna sleep as didnt have a sleep yesterday...but the assignment not finishe yet...if someone appear and help me to do assignments then so great!!!

DELETED

Today looked ur facebook again...found i really lost u on that moment...u cleared everything....including our memory....why u could change to another person so fast??WHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHY!!!!!! I HATE YOU!!!! I HATE YOU I HATE YOU IHATE YOU I HATE YOU!!!!! Why you wanna hurt me again and again!!!!WHY YOU REALLY WANNA DO THAT??? AM I haty for you???


NEVER FORGET YOU,I'LL REMEMBER YOU....TIME TO LOVE>>>>>>>>>

Long time have not seen you at school now...where are you?? I am so miss you....i have ever thought that sms to you...but did not do that as i dont want to disturb you...